I took my hijab off two days ago I’m so fuckin confused like idk if I should go back to wearing it or what I have a lot of opinions on it and that’s what lead me to actually go through to take it off it also feels like nothing happened but honestly I’m scared of people’s opinions and also my mom like doesn’t talk to me anymore because of that even tho when I first told her she told me it’s okay you’re my daughter with or without the hijab but lol she decided no it should have been right there and I shouldn’t have taken it off really and also I told them I will try a day without it and I did then I went out without it again and it still feels good I’m scared to lose my identity that’s associated with the hijab and being with a stable idea and look to people but I don’t want that to affect my decision if there were no opinions on what I do I would keep navigating my feelings and my decision alone without any external factors cuz I didn’t feel an ounce of shame when I took it off until my mom decided to stop talking to me and telling me that she isn’t ok with that idk how I should manage this actually if any of you could help me without any bias like just an honest opinion I want to really start feeling anything cuz I don’t feel any connection to the hijab anymore nor to my real self idk how to feel about this at all there’s nothing clear I prayed to god multiple times also prayed istikhara (prayer of guidance) and all that lead me here so idk how to deal with all of this
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