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I want you so bad

Tonight feels like one of those nights where Karachi is both the headline and the footnote. I’ve been scrolling through updates, trying to make sense of the city’s mood. The rain earlier this week left its mark broken walls, flooded streets, families grieving. At least fifteen lives lost to a storm that came and went like it had something to prove. Karachi always pays the price for the sky’s temper. Then there’s the strange story of the Karachi-bound ship turned back by Iran. A vessel named SELEN, stopped at the Strait of Hormuz and told to turn around. It’s the kind of geopolitical drama that feels far away until you remember that every container, every delay, every confrontation eventually ripples back to this city’s ports, its markets, its people. And somewhere along the coastline, the Chinese warship Daqing is docked for joint naval drills. Sea Guardian IV sounds almost poetic, though nothing about military exercises ever really is. Still, there’s something oddly reassuring about the idea of ships from two countries practicing side by side in Karachi’s waters. Maybe it’s the illusion of stability. The city feels tense but alive. It always does after a week like this, bruised but unbroken. Karachi has this way of absorbing chaos like it’s part of its bloodstream. As for me, I’m sitting here at 1:19 AM, typing into the glow of my screen, trying to stitch together the facts and the feelings. Trying to understand a city that never fully explains itself. Maybe that’s why I keep writing. Karachi is the kind of place that demands to be documented, not just in headlines, but in the quiet hours when the news settles and the truth begins to feel personal.

It’s 1:17 AM and the night feels heavier than usual. The fan is humming above me, doing that soft wobble it always does, like it’s tired too. Karachi outside my window is quiet in that deceptive way the kind of quiet that feels like it’s holding its breath. Maybe I’m holding mine too. I keep thinking about how strange this week has been. The rain, the sudden darkness, the way the city flooded so quickly, like it was overwhelmed and couldn’t hide it. I get that feeling. Some days I feel like one more unexpected downpour would spill me over the edge. But right now, in this stillness, there’s something comforting. The world isn’t asking anything of me. No messages, no noise, no rush. Just me, the dim light of my screen, and the soft echo of my own thoughts. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Karachi never promises anything — not calm, not chaos, not clarity. But maybe that’s why I love it. It’s unpredictable, stubborn, alive. A little like me. For now, I’ll let the night hold me. I’ll breathe. I’ll rest. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll wake up feeling a little lighter.

With u on my side I forgot how lonely I actually am