Title: My Half-Sister Mushk (Human + Otter)
Who she is to me: Mushk Mohyuddin is my paternal half-sister. Same dad, different moms. That makes us family whether we talk or not.
Why today feels hard: I wanted to get closer to her. She blocked me. When it's family, a block doesn't just feel like rejection ā it feels like the door to knowing my own sister is closed.
Two versions of Mushk in my head:
1. Animal Mushk / Mushter: Always sweet, always by the river, always lets me near her. She feels safe. I control this story.
2. Human Mushk: Real, has her own life, her own mom, her own boundaries. She can be rude, distant, and say no. I can't control this story.
What I need to remember:
ā¢ Her block isn't about me being bad. It's about her needing space.
ā¢ She is allowed to say no, even if she is my sister.
ā¢ Wanting a sister bond is natural and not wrong.
What I want to do next ā the healthy way:
ā¢ Respect the block. Don't try to contact her from other accounts.
ā¢ Let dad be dad, and let Mushk be Mushk. Don't force it.
ā¢ Keep Mushter the otter as my comfort character ā a place to put the sister love I have when I can't give it directly.
A letter I will NOT send (just for me):
Mushk, I just wanted to know you as my sister. I get it if you don't want that right now. I'll be over here by the river with otter-you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. If not, I still wish you well.
One small self-care today: Go for a walk, drink water, and remember you are allowed to feel sad about family stuff.