People might see me as this jolly, positive, happy, and loud person — always giving advices, reminding everyone that it will be okay, listening, understanding them, and yk, all that. But the thing is when I'm alone in my own thoughts I can't even understand myself or do the advices I'm telling others, I also am a very anxious person and I overthink almost everything which differs from what I appeared to be for others. I feel like such a hypocrite cuz I tell others this and that but when it comes to myself I can't even do all that. Like.....what should I do??? It's like I always bottle up everything on my own and isolate myself at times to others and then show up again like nothing happens. I feel like I'm making myself suffer even though I don't even want to. Now I also feel so cringe typing all this. I'm young, how possibly big does my problems/troubles be compared to others? I haven't even reach adulthood yet which is much worse. I'm just so conflicted on what I'm feeling, cuz I know that I'm valid, but somehow I don't accept/believe that, which is crazy. I don't know anymore....