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Fuck war. Fuck war, my house is shaking and I’m terrified

Sometimes things feel difficult, heavy and all sort of ways that make us feel like there’s no solution and you’ll probably never live the same way or find someone who will treat you better than that one specific person, even knowing how bad and toxic they were towards you. Attachment is bad, specially when it happens with people who don’t deserve a single drop of your tears. Never thought I’d talk about it, but healing and loving yourself before anyone else is the best gift you can give to your own you. Sometimes we just wanna be hugged and hold close, but what if we start with ourselves? If we hug and accept your own person and don’t expect things coming exclusively from others?

I’m writing this down because honestly, today just feels heavy. Between the local news and what’s happening globally, it really makes you stop and think about how fragile everything is. I was looking into the updates on that massive Nepal-Tibet flood disaster from last month, and the numbers coming out today are just staggering. It’s officially September 17th now, and the death toll in Tibet alone is at 43, with over 500 people still missing—including a couple hundred foreign pilgrims who were just trying to visit Mount Kailash. If you look at Nepal, it’s even worse. They are up to 1,410 confirmed dead and over 6,100 missing. The World Weather Attribution group even put out a report today saying climate change basically melted the glacier until it just collapsed. It's terrifying how fast nature can just wipe everything away. Closer to home, Karachi is dealing with its own chaotic grief today. There was that awful shooting on Sharea Faisal right by the airport where a police officer, Asad, was killed just doing a routine traffic stop. Then you hear about an 11-year-old girl drowning on her school picnic, and a 12-year-old boy drowning in a deep pool of water on an open plot near Civic Centre. The police also finally arrested a relative in that brutal Surjani Town family murder case. It’s just layer after layer of tragedy. But the story that's really breaking my heart tonight is Hammad, the marine engineer from Gulistan-e-Johar. He's still missing after his oil tanker got hit by a missile in the Strait of Hormuz a few days ago. The engine room he was working in exploded, and while 23 crew members were saved, he and an Indian sailor just vanished. His brother Fawad said Hammad called his mom at 2:00 AM right before the strike. The shipping company tells them he’s "feared dead," but won’t give them official paperwork. Because of the insane political tension between the US and Iran, the Foreign Office is moving like molasses. The family is all over social media tonight with #JusticeForHammadObaida, literally begging the government and the Army Chief to just get rescue teams into that engine room so they can have answers. It's a lot to process. Whether it's a massive glacier collapsing in the mountains, a missile strike at sea, or a random street shooting, life can change in a split second. Just holding the people I love a little closer tonight.

I’m writing this down because honestly, today just feels heavy. Between the local news and what’s happening globally, it really makes you stop and think about how fragile everything is. I was looking into the updates on that massive Nepal-Tibet flood disaster from last month, and the numbers coming out today are just staggering. It’s officially September 17th now, and the death toll in Tibet alone is at 43, with over 500 people still missing—including a couple hundred foreign pilgrims who were just trying to visit Mount Kailash. If you look at Nepal, it’s even worse. They are up to 1,410 confirmed dead and over 6,100 missing. The World Weather Attribution group even put out a report today saying climate change basically melted the glacier until it just collapsed. It's terrifying how fast nature can just wipe everything away. Closer to home, Karachi is dealing with its own chaotic grief today. There was that awful shooting on Sharea Faisal right by the airport where a police officer, Asad, was killed just doing a routine traffic stop. Then you hear about an 11-year-old girl drowning on her school picnic, and a 12-year-old boy drowning in a deep pool of water on an open plot near Civic Centre. The police also finally arrested a relative in that brutal Surjani Town family murder case. It’s just layer after layer of tragedy. But the story that's really breaking my heart tonight is Hammad, the marine engineer from Gulistan-e-Johar. He's still missing after his oil tanker got hit by a missile in the Strait of Hormuz a few days ago. The engine room he was working in exploded, and while 23 crew members were saved, he and an Indian sailor just vanished. His brother Fawad said Hammad called his mom at 2:00 AM right before the strike. The shipping company tells them he’s "feared dead," but won’t give them official paperwork. Because of the insane political tension between the US and Iran, the Foreign Office is moving like molasses. The family is all over social media tonight with #JusticeForHammadObaida, literally begging the government and the Army Chief to just get rescue teams into that engine room so they can have answers. It's a lot to process. Whether it's a massive glacier collapsing in the mountains, a missile strike at sea, or a random street shooting, life can change in a split second. Just holding the people I love a little closer tonight.

I’m the hills in the distance, can’t see me, can’t be me.