The thought of him being so devoted to another woman before makes me so sick Im not mad at him, ofc not thatd be ridiculous But for some reason the shameful feeling of jealousy hits whenever i think of his ex He was so devoted to her. He learnt to play instruments for her, he was so captivated and desperate for her I feel sick. We're different people at different stages of his life so i cant make or expect him to treat me with the same intensity as he had with her But i wish, i wish i was her
Birthday wish is to disappear. What's the point of living when you're life is on hold to caregiving. Fuck this life