ayaw ko na mabuhay, wala na akong magawang tama.

I was talking to this guy in the middle of August till the middle of September. this weekend in September we were supposed to hang out, but he got grounded 4 days before and so his parents, therefore taking his phone. His parents are very strict and no matter the cause of being grounded he gets grounded at least a month each time. In September and a little of October we had no contact nothing at all so therefore I was losing feelings for him but in November and at the end of October he texted me once a week when at away football games when he logged into his friends phone while on the bus. You might be wondering why am I waiting 2 months for a guy but you don’t get that we used to talk every single night from sun up to sundown like I would tell him about anything and everything and I liked him since July but he did not want anything with me and so I waited for him, and when he finally wanted me back, I felt like the happiest girl in the world and then he got grounded and now I have to wait all over for him. His best friend is my cousin and I’ll be texting my cousin about him and also I would text people in his football team about him asking like how he was doing and if he was a hoe or anything just getting the smallest amount of information I could about him. I have not gotten a text from him in 2 weeks because of football being over but I was at his last football game, we hugged and talked about how we were but I didn’t get everything I wanted to out so now I’m just sitting here with my thoughts not knowing what to do, I’m going to my cousins house for Thanksgiving hoping that he’ll be there so we can talk about everything. I’m simply just asking for advice on whether or not I should wait. I’m choosing to wait until January Because his close family friend said that he’ll probably be back in January. If he does not come back then I will be not waiting for him, but I truly don’t see myself with any other guy.