I was in a situationship at the start of September it's now November and it was the most toxic. Rollercoaster of emotions I've ever felt in my entire life that situation has made me feel worthless and like I can never find true love or that I'm unlovable this guy didn't offer much to me but it's so hard to move on I honestly don't know where to go from here cause u really do want a bf and I really do want love I just feel hung up on this one guy who wasn't any good for me

I'm really tired of having to keep a wall up or my guard up when going into a relationship or in a situationship. Like why do I have to protect my heart from you why can't I just be vulnerable and feminine and leave my mind at home while we're on the road so I don't have to have these conflicting thoughts and emotions while I'm with you why do I have to confused as to why you did this or where everything suddenly came from. Like why all of a sudden you stop talking to me for another girl I'm I not enough? Or is it that I'm boring to you now. ☹️ I just want to date someone I'm attracted to and someone I can be happy with