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He replied to my message asking him if he ever acc loved me and stuff (Ive cut out bits of his personal info) "I’m human, and you’re human too. Please don’t lower your worth or your standards for someone who’s no greater than you. If your feelings aren’t being returned, don’t keep sacrificing yourself for them. I didn’t lose my feelings overnight. I really did try. I tried playing Minecraft with you, laughing with you, joking around, and pretending everything was okay because I wanted so badly for things to go back to normal. But every single day it became harder. My mental state kept getting worse until I stopped eating. I was constantly battling guilt, conviction, and what I believed I needed to change. The disgust I felt was never towards you. It was towards the situation I believed I needed to leave behind, and the lust I felt I had to repent from. I have never hated you, and I’ve never looked at you with disgust. Like I said before, if I ever see you in person, I’m not going to ignore you or turn away. I’ll come over, say hi, and treat you with respect. We aren’t strangers because of this, but we aren’t friends either. I’d say we’re acquaintances now. Please don’t convince yourself that my love for you was fake. It wasn’t. And don’t think that all the times I stayed, despite the guilt, the sickness, and the nausea I felt from everything I was struggling with, were me pretending. I stayed because I genuinely loved you, and I was trying to make it work. I simply reached a point where I couldn’t keep fighting what I believed I needed to do. I promised I wouldn’t block you, and I intend to keep that promise. But please don’t expect me to reply straight away or constantly be on my phone. My life is really busy right now. I’ve been dealing with (n/a) I hope this helps clear up what you’ve been worrying about. One thing I really want you to remember is this: don’t let my words dictate your worth or your life. Never let another person’s words define who you are or determine how you feel about yourself. (Name), you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for, and I know you’ll get through this. Please stay strong during this difficult time. It won’t feel like this forever, and eventually things will get better."