Roseiyuu here Life isnt getting better, it just fucked me in the ass with another chainsaw because whyd i just find out my ex closest friend of 4-5 years was saying some bullshit about me to other people that simply wasnt true and dogging on the most vulnerable time of my life (aka the time i was undergoing really traumatising sexual and physical abuse with my previous ex, fell into deep depression & psychosis and became increasingly suicidal while they all openly ignored me + all my calls for help whilebeing there for eachother then later dismissed my feelings when confronted) Gen just wanna end my shit im not even kidding I could only cope with losing her because my recent ex was there for me but now theyre both out of my lives and in stuck figuring out who the hell they actually were outside of what they showed me while deeply yearning for the part of them that used to love me Ffs Sorry. I know this isnt my usual positive or funny post i used to give. Life is really hard right now and everything just feels awful no matter what i do. Ive had to strip myself of everything i love just to keep some sanity alive because everything i love, they loved too. Life does get better, but right now i just dont know how long ill pull it off to see that day