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The guilt of liking someone romantically is so agnosing omg. I genuinely feel so guilty Like I'm so sorry for not being able to see us as something purely platonic and itd probably ruined your day knowing i think of you as something more Like thats the only reason why i havent confessed to my crush. The guilt of being like every other girl in his life pains me. Back in the beginning of us being friends again after years of separation, he talked about how it became tiring when all of his female friends liked him..i feel ashamed i ended up becoming no better than them. Hes so comfortable with me, we're affectionate and clingy. We even fake dated. But what if hes only like this because he believes i dont have any romantic interest. Im so scared. I love him wholeheartedly as a friend too, i had for years prior but now, i love him romantically just as much. Ive always been the type to confess without much shame, but this time i genuinely feel scared and i dont know what to do. Weve got a history with eachother, i was bullied growing up by other people in our school. I was always scared to befriend him because i was worried hed look at me with the same disgust that they did. I still feel scared. What if he shows discomfort, disgust and disappointment towards me.