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Earlier today I had an argument with my brother which then involved both of my parents. It ended up with them scolding and blaming me for something, and somehow I felt guilty. Guilty enough to relapse, to hurt myself again. I have always harmed myself just because I fought with someone and I feel immense guilt to the point I'd hurt myself as much as I hurt them. Usually I'd harm myself by only scratching, I am smart enough to not cut myself or burn on obvious parts of my body. Instead I would scratch, hit or slap myself on the parts that can be easily covered (ex. Shoulders, stomach, thighs). It never really did left a mark for long, so it was practically perfect for me. But today, I got too out of control to the point I wounded myself, it left an awfully red and purplish scratch mark on my upper arm. I really should stop this, but old habits die hard ig :p