Hey guys I’m writing here because I’m a little afraid of making a fool out of myself in case I’m wrong but I genuinely need to know if I’m overthinking it. I’m really wondering if it’s not too arrogant to post this but whatever fuck it. If you want to listen about my insignificant problems, go ahead. I’m really wondering if everything is really okay with my mental health. I wouldn’t say I’m depressed because I can still recognise the fact that some people have it way worse than me but I can’t help but wonder. I’ve always been an anxious person. Worrying about not doing enough or not being able to keep up with everyone else while still doing nothing locked up in my room alone. I’m deeply insecure about my looks and my personality and it is impacting the way I interact with my friends or my family by making me more aggressive or annoyingly sarcastic when I talk to them. The thing is I am well aware of my flaws and have been trying to fix them for years with little to no success. Some days are better than others, sometimes I just think I made everything up in my head and that I am perfectly fine, that I am just an attention seeker. But each time I find myself at the bottom, those feelings resurface, making life feel so hard to live. Suicide never felt like an option and I don’t think I would even really consider doing it because I just dont think I’m that unwell but that’s precisely the reason why I consider my feelings invalid or less important. I want to get better because living while constantly being negative or pessimistic with people around me or even myself is exhausting but it’s complicated to try to fix a problem when you don’t really think exist. Well that’s all if you’ve read this thank you for your time.