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Now that I'm older and my features have changed. My body, as well. I find it difficult to recognize myself. I'm older, so I'm trying to relearn who I am. I feel like, my early 20's was my peak era. I was most confident t that time and I knew who I was, fully. No one ever questioned who I am because, I was so sure about myself. When I saw old pictures of myself. I told myself, "I miss this girl, that bold girl who knew who she was". My fashion back then was so good. Ofcourse, I still dress up. But, it doesn't feel quite the same. Part of me also feels so lost. I feel like I'm Flounder, navigating through vast currents. I seriously don't know where I'm headed. But, at the same time, I know my destination. I just don't know how to get there, it's also just like I'm walking through a desert with a thick sandstorm. I feel like I don't have a North Star. Getting older is hard, it's even more difficult when you reach a phase of relearning yourself. I pray that I get through this. I hope to one day find my North Star. I really thought I had it all figured out.....I don't, never did. I hope and pray for myself. That, I, as a Flounder; get to my destination. Please Please Please ....one day....