I’ve been in an on and off relationship for almost 3 years now. At first he was such an amazing guy and I was an amazing girl. He moved states and I followed getting pregnant 1 1/2 months later after meeting him. He has cheated on me. Lied to me. Manipulated me. Time skip to now because to go over my story with him would take forever. I gave birth and a month later was driven to take my life. I ended up in a mental hospital and while in there he got with one of the girls he’d cheated on me with. Super fucked thing for him to do. Now 3 years later I’ve come to realize it’s been a domestic violence relationship silent abuse. I mean this man has trained me into an obedient girlfriend to avoid fights drama and issues because his words it’s always my fault for one reason or another. I tried breaking up with him September 17th and he tried to take his gun and get in truck to self annihilate. My 3 month old kitten died that night because I chased after him to get the gun away from him. I’m still here. I don’t have a license he won’t take me to get one. I have a pos car that has a rusted frame. I make barely enough money and he won’t let me move to my old job that paid more. Yes we have a child together and I’ve thought about him and everything which is why I’m still here- But I need to know how have you gotten out? If I leave he’s going to kill himself and if I leave I can’t take our son with me because I will be living in a car until I get a place. I want out of this relationship and he knows it but I have to keep playing at everything being fine otherwise it’s screaming fighting silent treatment and just hell. I’ve tried breaking up with him repeatedly but he always gets me wrapped around his finger and back into my place. I turn 20 the 15th this month.