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I was raised by my grandparents, blame it on generational trauma or lack of something, but for some reason I was THE punching bag verbally and physically, They told me to never trust anyone, don’t let anyone in, don’t tell people anything, and well they proved what they said I’m still just a shell, built with all these feelings and I’ll never fully give myself to people, I’m so closed off people walk away before I slightly open up bc it’s too much effort, I can’t do it, I wanna be a social bug I love talking to people and then I open my mouth and everything floods in and I go quiet bc I can’t trust no one. Everyone will judge me. I can only rely on the people that abused me yet saved me from things. Idk I’m confused idk anymore