I spent all day working on fixing my stupid laptop and I finally did it at like 11:30pm and I wasn't even sure it was possible. I feel like I should be proud, but I'm not. I just feel like I should have figured out the solution sooner, despite knowing all of the reasons that it was my last resort and knowing that it's kind of only a bandaid on the root issue. I just can't shake the feeling that there's so many other people who could have done it better and faster. it's really demotivating. I just wish someone was proud of me. More accurately, I wish I believed it when they say they are. why does life have to be so hard.