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I hadn’t know that this storm mirrored him and I Our eyes met and I saw the longing of our souls and I wondered „ Should I just let go of my inner torture and stop this anguishing thirst of mine?….. Should our lips do the talking and be the witness of our new found reality?…. I wanted to move… to run over and make him mine… but…. I wasn’t gonna break again… I wasn’t gonna anticipate a men’s love…. I wanted him but I loved myself more… In this rain all I could see was him through my blurry eyes and yet he stained my whole world with his colors and I wondered „ Am I damned to love with a insecure heart?“ I hate him and yet my eyes search his in the crowd… my nose searches his scent and those eyes that resemble the world…. We just stare in this pouring mess eventhough we were the definition of it….. No one moved and it became heart to breath… why is it so complicated?!? I wanna know what he is thinking…. His eyes getting more unreadable and yet clear…. Is it going to end like this??? Will this distance remain and our hearts never reach each other?…. I want to scream and let go of this piercing pain in my chest…. So that’s what I did… „ Why won’t you come close??? Why can’t you move closer to me?!! Why do you pretend that you hate me but love me to pieces?!! Why… just why… won’t you tell me you love me?!! this distance will be the end of us…. If you love me stop running away… Don’t make it more painful than it is …. Please just love me and that’s all I will ever ask…. Come closer…. I’m not a piece of glass that will break that fast… He didn’t answer is it because….. he is made by me…. He reflects my desire and my fantasy… He is someone that I try to find in someone that doesn’t really exist…. This storm will await when the world gets silent and my heart makes it known that it wants to fall in love… Aren’t we all just pitiful at some point craving something to the point of being miserable??? Can anyone relate?