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Hey Yall I’m sorry this is gonna be so long I need to talk to someone about a lot, sometimes it gets hard to breathe I get yelled at for trying to have me time when I can’t hear anyone but it’s so bad for me to put both headphones in and blast music at full volume so I can’t hear no it’s bad to do that I’m sorry I need time for me when I can’t hear yall want me to talk to yall instead of therapy so I’m trying to just have me time my playlist is over 3 hours so just give me a day… a day for me and me only… because I can’t take this anymore I’m very young and sometimes I wanna end it not end my life then I’ll seem crazy but I wanna turn into the quiet kid never speak again but I can’t because yall want me to talk to yall well guess what I have both headphones in music blasting full volume and im a girl girls get their period while guys just sit ther useless so you know what im done with this cruel world shut the fuck up yall bitches I love you mom and dad but god damn give a god damn minute and school the bitches at school there’s good bitches and there’s the bad kind of butches tell me why there so many of the bad bitches god damn… and there’s more to I’ve been bullied since pre k school it’s been so long and no matter where I go I’m still bullied and these guys one said he has a crush on me o stayed silent then he the next day started calling me his girlfriend like who the fuck does that and then is touching my back trying to scare me staring at my boobs having a crush on me and 2 of my friends and who know how many other people… and another guy I dated was Wierd and was trying to get with my best friend my best friend said no tho and this is the same best friend I lost contact with I’m going crazy and back to the guy we broke up because he was weird and kept trying to get with my bestie and then after we broke up I gave my bestie permission to date him because she asked first before dating him and while he was dating her he was trying to get back with me and next this bestie I stood up for her I will kill for her I love her now as a bestie but when we lost contact we were dating because I date boys and girls I like someone I have a crush on someone but they are one grade below me and we’re besties I’m scared to ruin that life is cruel and complicated this app is the closest to therapy I can get so any comments help me I can’t talk to my parents to these things because 1 my mom told me to get over my bestie that I lost contact with and I’m not allowed to date and also some things a lots of things part of the reason I need therapy is because of them and also how do I tell them my brother who is a year and a half older then me bully’s and abuses me both mentally and physically again sorry this is so long but please help me I don’t know how to keep going… and also I don’t even know who I am I lost my personality in pre k I keep trying to find myself but I can’t I’ve been typing this for like almost 20 minutes maybe in another life maybe life won’t be so cruel… I don’t know how to fix myself I’m stuck and now it’s to much pressure I’m failing my tests and I used to be scared and sad now I’m just empty sad and depressed how do I fix myself and my mom controls Evrey little thing she says I’m the easy one because I learned if she don’t like it just get rid of it I can’t where tight shirts I always have to wear a bra even when I’m at home I hate being a girl I hate this I hate this I hate this