I used to heavily relate to this when I was younger, I used to think I was such a burden on people and that I deserved death. Now with more experience in my life I realise that isn’t the case at all. There is people who care for you out there, and I’m sure your an amazing person in real life. What kept me together was helping others who couldn’t help themselves, if it came down to donating food or offering aid. It gave me a sense of purpose to live for. I hope your doing okay and this message gave some form of help. Yours sincerely A friend ❤️