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Hey guys! It’s been a hot minute. I’m not sure if anyone I know is still around, and I think my name is slightly different. But I just wanted to say this in case someone needs it. You are so much more capable than you realize. Just believe in yourself. Throw a shot in the dark. You’re more likely to succeed in it than fail, and if you fail, who cares? At least you tried! But I say this because I just spent maybe an hour or two? Maybe 3? Talking to a friend. We are not close in any sense whatsoever. But I saw they’re ig notes something that threw me off. And I felt like in my soul, I needed to ask them about it. So I asked them what the plans were for tonight. And they told me it was a lot going on. And I pushed to hear all about their at of the night. There was no adventure. They were thinking about tonight being their final night. I’m not sure if other people reached out, but another friend I spoke to, said she noticed. But she brushed it off as them talking about another date. I told my friend who was considering something horrible, the same thing I said up before this paragraph. Well a version of it. I said it multiple times. We went back and forth even. But what it boiled down to being was time. They were hurting for so long. And things are supposed to get better with time but it just wasn’t looking like it was for them. I tried many different tactics. From pleading, to encouraging them to keep their head up. This went on, in circles, around and around for upwards of 2 hours maybe? It was a long time. I could tell they were becoming tired. I wanted to end the conversation on a lighter note. I went back to the topic of time and asked about the things they enjoyed doing, to see if they could fill their time with that. The saying is time flies when you’re having fun. So i thought if they do something they enjoy, time would feel less long to them. Well the thing they love the most they can’t do anymore, they do other things though. Well, me being me, I asked about puzzles. I have a strange fascination with puzzles. They’re stressful but in a calming way. They said they didn’t know and they couldn’t get any. I have at least 50 puzzles. I love puzzles. I’m an addict in the sense. I got them to settle down with the idea that in the morning or sometime during the day, I’d go through all my puzzles, take pictures of them and tell them the number of pieces so they know, and they can pick however many and whatever print. Then, we’d talk about getting the puzzles to them. And it was a whim, spur of the moment, but I genuinely do not think I would’ve gotten them to settle down. Yes they were tired but they probably would’ve gone to bed with a negative thought rather than something positive and something to look forwards to. It was like a shot in the dark. After they said they were unsure, I threw a shot. Last ditch effort. It was crazy, but it worked. Sometimes, you just have to pull the craziest moves ever. The craziest of plays. Sometimes they don’t work and that’s fine. But there are some cases where they do work and they can change everything. It never hurts to try. :) Anyways, I’m not sure if I’ll keep coming back regularly. But I just wanted to say that. I’m tired but like I tell anyone, id rather sit with them for hours on end, listening to them and trying to help them, than them keeping it to themselves and it potentially getting to a certain and devastating point. Sure, spent time is time you can’t get back. But if it’s spent supporting another and bringing some type of hope for something for someone, I’d consider that time well spent. Keeping someone here is one thing, keeping them here with a newfound hope and motivation, that’s another thing. And I think that sums up who i am as a person. I think there is something for everyone out there, you just gotta keep your head up and be open to all experiences that come along that journey.