Blurry I See Blurry I see I feel ants eating my eyes Water comes rushing trying to fight back As i seek darkness It hides it all together As I too hide all of mine. Blurry I see When the last piece is left I think of how anything else is worthless Im not even brought up Since I’m not even a piece I seem to be a simple crumb. Blurry I see Because I don’t have enough quarters I cant get what I need I push back and work hard Seems I’m not worthy for even the quarters But still I have to manage? Blurry I see As i put my shoes on without socks Doing things without order like how I eat without hunger Or how I long for feelings Without even understanding mines. Blurry I see When I try to find something Something I do not know of But so desperately need Nobody wants to tell me what So I’m supposed to just know it. Blurry I see When I smile ear to ear Because I’m laughing at something funny, When I’m with friends hanging out With the overwhelming feeling behind it That ironically, I cant left behind. Blurry I see As I fidget my fingers in a loop. When I start jumping a single leg And scratch the side of my left arm Or blink really rapidly as i look up A full workout that leaves me without air. Blurry I see When I’m tired of trying When I want to be heard When I want to be understood When I want to live normally When I want to finally stop. Blurry I see Every day because I’m a coward And I don’t have the guts The guts to finally end all of this To finally be free. Free of all these thoughts that consume me. I wanna be left alone. Im so tired. I wanna go home, But I hate home. I hate everything. I just want to die.