ive had my entire life planned out but it feels like nothing is turning out how i thought it would. its like baking brownies. you forget about them in the oven and they get a little crispy, but they still taste good, and maybe even taste better. ive run into so many things that have thrown my plans off. i met the boy of my dreams. i graduated early. i got a job and started supporting myself. but biggest of all, right when i got the acceptance letter to my dream school, i started second guessing if this is really what i wanted. my whole life ive wanted to live up to this expectation, to this life. i felt compelled to go to college. i thought this was the life i needed. but its not what i wanted. i dont think i want to go to college. actually I don't know what i think. everyone's telling me to give it a shot but my heart tells me its not what i wanted. i thought ever since i was little that this is the life i wanted, but maybe that was just a facade. i just wanted to be someone inspiring, someone impressive. i wanted to be someone thats not me.
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