I thought abt ending my life last month. I woke up with this strange sense of relief, thinking I didn't have to do this anymore. but then I saw my friends messages nd my mom happily cooking lunch, nd suddenly I felt this ache in my heart. even when I'm deeply hurting, I couldn't bring myself to do it because I don't want the people I love to live with that kind of guilt. rn, I’m still here, but honestly, I'm barely getting through it. nd since I'm going to live nd die anyway, maybe I should at least do the things I've always been too scared to do, like I want to try bungy jumping or jslet myself enjoy things without being afraid. who knows I might die in that activity so it's a win-win situation right? I get to actually enjoy the life nd die. it's a life changer for me lol