Missing her Warmth
sometimes it's hard to look at yourself in the mirror and think "im beautiful" the first time I said that to myself while staring in the mirror, I felt the same as before, maybe a little awkward if anything. the second time I said I'm beautiful while staring in the mirror, I thought "hm the more i look at myself the more i think maybe im not too bad" the 5th time I told myself im beautiful, I started believing it a bit. I started turning my head every which direction, looking at the moles on my face, my lips, my ears, my eyes. the 10th time I said I'm beautiful, I felt happier, I started feeling more confident. the 15th time was a big step for me- I posted my face in instagram for the first time EVER. and I felt great. the 100th time, I caught myself staring at my reflection in shiny things. when I was walking in the street and I saw myself in a window reflection, I thought "wow I look good" "my hair is cute" "my outfit looks good" its now been a year since I started doing this, and now I naturally say I love myself- almost like it's a reflex. those 3 words come naturally out of my mouth the same way air does. it's like blinking- I dont even think about it, it's just happens. my posture is better because jm more confident, I feel calmer around people, in general a lot has changed. i never knew that these 2 words had so much power, and that sometimes telling yourself you're beautiful feels better than being told it by someone else. you are beautiful. the downfall of happiness really is comparison. tell yourself you're beautiful. admire yourself in the mirror.